Here’s a few situations from my life that make me go, hmmmm …
The first: I knew I was going to graduate first in my law school class.
I saw it happening as soon as I met my boss when I interned at the Attorney General’s Office in College. She graduated first in her class at University of Florida.
Everyone thought she was just the smartest person they knew.
I wanted that. (I’m a 3 on the enneagram.)
Then, I saw myself graduating first in my law school class too. Saw it happening. Knew it would happen.
Then, it did.
(Oddly enough, once in school, I convinced myself I failed every test only to find out I had scored at the top. So, this was not your typical manifestation process. And, I managed to do it despite the fact that my economics paper — No More Free Milk: Why Women of a Certain Age Should Never Live With a Man Without Marriage — was wholly rejected by the male professors grading it.)
Did I make it happen or did I catch the vision of it because it was going to happen?
Next time it happened: I always knew I’d have two kids before I was 30.
It wasn’t the same as the law school time where I could have made a decision that I wanted to graduate first when I saw how much everyone respected my boss. The kids thing was different.
I just knew I would.
And, I did.
Were the choices I made leading to that reality pre-destined? Or did I manifest it?
Most recent time: My bankruptcy.
There’s some part of me that knew I was going to file for bankruptcy before I even knew it was possible to borrow money to invest in my business.
The first loan application I filled out, I was full of shame.
I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from, but there it was and as a result, I asked for as little as possible. I would have asked for less, but my banker said I had to ask for at least $50,000.
So, I did.
A year later, I increased the line to $100,000, wishing I would have just asked for that to begin with so I didn’t have to pay closing costs twice.
At that point, I was no longer thinking I’d ever file bankruptcy because I had parlayed the first $50,000 loan into a $750,000 a year law practice.
Now it was time to double down and go for a million.
I didn’t think of the potential for bankruptcy again until 2007 when I was still running my million dollar law practice and created a second company, out of my spare bedroom, training lawyers on my new law business model systems.
I remember being up one night around 2am, kids asleep in the other room or staying at their dads, and I was writing the newsletter we sent out to our clients. I was exhausted. Running two businesses. Single mom. Finding myself as a woman.
I thought of Jack Canfield and how he had filed bankruptcy once before going on to write 27 books and become one of the most well-read authors in the world and a teacher to millions.
I had this sense that it would be my path too. Which seemed weird because at that point I had one million dollar business and another well on its way.
But it felt true.
Fast forward 5 years and I ended up filing bankruptcy. (The story of that bankruptcy, how it came to be, how I rebounded better than ever and how I have rebuilt what I gave up twice over is for another day.)
So, was it the case that I was destined to file bankruptcy? Or did my thoughts about it call it in?
One more time — maybe the weirdest: I’d become a Boulder midwife with dreadlocks
I remember back when I was fully Alexis Martin Neely, straight up lawyer, own law practice or perhaps still an associate at the biglaw firm of Munger, Tolles & Olson, I had a vision of being a midwife in Boulder and having dreadlocks in my hair.
It was weird because I was so far from that reality. But, it felt real.
Today, I live in Boulder. I don’t have dreadlocks, but I do wear a lot of feathers in my hair. And, I’m not a traditional baby-catching midwife, but I do midwife women’s next level emergence in business and life. And I midwife lawyer’s into the law practices of their dreams. It’s not far off.
Did I envision this because I was predetermined to move to Boulder and become a hippie no matter what I did? Or, did I manifest this reality as a result of the process of manifestation?
What’s I wonder about is this: other than the law school graduation situation, I didn’t feel as if I specifically called any of these things in. I clearly saw them happening though.
I do have several situations of what I would call pure manifestation in which I set my mind on something and then bam it happened. But these weren’t quite like that. So I always wonder … premonition or manifestation?
What do you think? And do you have any similar situations you wonder about?